sadded endin...

hubby makoto...mayb tis is de last time im callin euu as ie dnt tink im able tuu called euu hubby again... sadded.. feelin like uncountable thorns prickin maiie heart.. euur a great guy,but im nt dat gd enuff for euu.. euu still gt a great bright life ahead.. rather den stickin with miie n destroy yr bright future.. ders lots lots lots of words in maiie mind n heart but nth can cm out nw... all stucked n suddenly felt pain in maiie heart n all went blank in maiie mind..
anyway,ie wish euu all de best in everything euu do n strike for de best..

(all best things turns bad for miie in de end,y?y?y? y is all tis things happenin tuu miie*cry.....*)

Boring lonely nitez...

Sianx.. A lonely nitex for miie & mum.. Dad's working at 8pm,hubby went back home tuu accompany his dad(dad came back from overseas),son went auntie's house tuu stay,so der'll be only miie & mum,lonely... We'r boring & its real quiet in de house... Real quiet till der's no mood continue writing maiie blog... Haix... Just some last words before ending: Gerald! Mummy & Ah ma miss euu! Hubby! Honey miss euu! NiteZzzzz.....

SORRY KOR...

Was a damn busy morning.. Was tidying my house & was trying tuu move god statues tuu maiie bro's hse..Was afraid of seeing maiie bro as ie've make a very big mistake by believing maiie ex's words & hurt him.Reali no face tuu face him. But still,he agreed tuu help mummy in moving de statues tuu his hse.He was still slping by 10am as he's on night shift ytd,mummy & mie was very anxious as we must move de statues all by de morning,so no choice gotta ask maiie sis-in-law tuu help by calling him.Luckily,it wrks..Maiie bro called & we sent de things tuu his hse.Its been a long time dat ie haven been seeing him,was damn paiseh & scared.Was damn afraid of facing him & knowing how's he's gg tuu treat miie like?Reached his hse,wow!Saw lots of birds hanging in his corridor,he's busying giving shower tuu his birds & do euu noe how many birds he've?21. Seems like entering a bird shop by de chirping sound,hahax...So tis is his new interest after losing contact for a yr.Called him Kor!He replyed:Yes?Phew...Was damn relieved & happy about dat.But no matter wat,ie dont noe whether had he forgiven miie or not,so now im hoping dat he's able tuu see tis:KOR,SINCERELY ASKING FOR YR FORGIVENESS.SORRY TUU BELIEVE HIS WORDS & CAUSES SO MUCH HURT & TROUBLE IN EUU.REALI SORRY!

Haix... Really dono wats gg on tu miie.. Fallen sick since last week,recovered..But now,im having a damn bad gum ache til it swollen on maiie face as if im severly being punched except without de blueblack bruises.. Wats happining tu miie?yyy? Y all dis damn irritating & painful sickness... Cant wk again,another sat absences.. Cant slp de whole nite & was sobbing as its reali painful.. Wat tu do? Visit de dentist? The dentist cant do much when ie cant even open maiie mouth wide enuff,so he'll surely prescribe some panadol as painkillers & will ask miie tu wait till de swollen swells & den come back.. Dats wat de 2 dentist said tu miie in de previous gum ache.. Haix.. Maiie life is in a damn mess...YYY?Hu can tell miie y...Help!Real pain...Yis he not arnd everytime when i need him? Cos he's at wk...Hahax...A DAMN STUPID QUESTION & REPLY FROM MYSELF.. Another damn day 4 miie...SAD... MISS HIM LOTS..HUBBY MAKO,IE MISS EUU!He left a sweet sms tu miie & ask miie tu be strong & apologise dat he cant take care of miie as he needs tu wk & ask miie tu hug der pooh dat he gave miie as de pooh will sayang miie on his behalf..Thks hubby,dats real sweet of euu & ie'll b strong,so no worrys & go wk..MUACKZ...

Haix... Nitetime is arnd de corner & soon it'll be time for bed..Definitely der'll be monday blues for miie tmr as im resting in bed mostly for de whole weekend due tuu maiie sickness.. But ie think everyone will have monday blues tuu after a weekend of resting,right.. hahax..So im not alone.. WAT HAPPENING TUU MIIE? All dat floods inside maiie mind is his image,he's busy at wk 2dae & dats maiie poor hardwking hubby: MAKOTO DEVILTHUNDER! Just wana tell him & wish dat he can hear miie screaming this : HUBBY! HONEY REALLY MISS EUU LOTS! IM WAITING FOR EUU TUU OFF DUTY & TUCK MIIE IN BED! LOVE EUU LOTS! MUACCKZZ....!

1 happy & 1 sad matter..

Haizx..Accidentally erased all maiie finished written blog & coulnt get it back,so here im writing again.. Still gotta take tos lots of medicine regularly tuu get well,but lucky dat im recovering,so ie'll be saying bye tuu tos medicine soon..Yeah.. Was damn happy ytd nitez,as ie..STRIKE IN 4D!Yeah,yeah,yeah,yeah!Dats de very 1st time striking.Altot its consolation but im oredi contented. As it lessen bit of maiie burden,hahax.. Thinking back ytd nitez,ders another thing dat makes miie extremely angry & it gotta do with maiie fren DEEL. Altot ie didnt noe her long,but she's a very gd listener,she shares maiie happiness & sorrows,she shares her sorrows with miie tuu.But im losing her.. Saw her message on de msn saying dat she cant talk tuu gals anymore due tuu sm reasons & ie asked her y. She reply dat she got a new gal but haven started yet & she set rules for her & dats she cant chat with gals anymore & ... Ie was shocked & reali sad,its at if she stab miie hard into maiie heart with a damn sharp thing.It hurts as im gg tuu lose a real gd fren tuu miie now..REALLY HURTS.. Mayb ie treat frens with all maiie heart & it causes miie tuu be like dat.. Haix.. But frankly,now ie dnt feel anymore hated in her anymore,is it dat im gg tuu end our frenship for such a reason..Nope, frens r forever,& will always be der when dey needs euu.. So im gg tuu fold our frenship & keep it hidden deep in maiie heart. Ie'll always be der when euu needs miie but ie sincerely hope dat euu wnt need maiie help ever after.. De oni thing im doing now is pray dat god bless her with all de happiness dats she's seeking & pray dat her relationship tis time will turn out well & smooth for her.. Everyone gotta do sm sacrifices for their love ones & this is wat she choose tuu sacrifices.So.. : DEEL,STRIKE FOR YR OWN HAPPINESS! GOD BLESS & WISH EUU ALL DE BEST! TAKE CARE MAIIE FREN...!